Lilly

Positivity!  That’s my new watchword!  I’m tired of feeling sorry for myself and moaning and groaning (probably you’re all tired of it too!)  I spent my whole week’s vacation complaining and had a huge fight with my husband for not respecting me and with my kids for not helping me.  I had warned my husband beforehand that we needed to have time just the four of us together, but the weather was bad so we stayed at home and had guests over practically every day - it just wasn’t a vacation for me!  But, part of it is my fault.  I need to make time for myself and do things for myself.  No one would have minded if I’d said, today I’m taking the day off and just doing stuff for me.  So, I will do that from now on.  I’m going to get on the phone and make an appointment at the hairdresser for this week and I’m going to spend every evening this week doing some kind of exercise.  I have my sister’s girls staying with us this week so the kids are happily occupied and don’t need me around.  I’m going to re-organise my work schedule so I have more time for myself and I’m going to think only lovely happy thoughts about everyone - including myself!

I need to get back on track with my exercise again.  I’ve been keeping my weight stable for the past two weeks and will continue to do that until school starts again and I have time to plan my food better, but in the meantime I need to exercise to feel good.  I’m still not happy with my body in a bikini.  I have no waist at all and I really need to focus my attention on that area.  I haven’t been consistent with my arm exercises either, so I need to make that a regular thing. Toning! That’s my second watch word!

 I have a relaxation CD that I used to listen to regularly whcih really reinforced feeling good about yourself.  I am determined I will listen to that CD five times a week, do my arm and stomach exercises 5 times a week.  My goal is to weigh 120 by Christmas, to look fantastic in a bikini and to have a proper vacation!